water

it's different forms, shapes, colors, the reflections, and it's polarity. hydrogen and oxygen. how it can swallow, suffocate, create, and thrive. on the surface & beneath. too much & too little. its beauty in the earth & it's function in the body. the body of everything.

When you think of me I will be drifting in between the spaces of time in the last moment that I knew you. ~~~~ "She's a writer, She'll always remember" Maybe I'll even have a poem written about me stuffed in her disheveled notebooks I was important, I'm still important a first love is a silly thing but such a forgetful thing sometimes.

we are called to love as people

You would think that as far as humanity has come over the generations and centuries, we would learn to just love each other - no matter what. why can't we just put aside our differences and realize we are all the same? We all have a living, breathing human physical body that is capable of understanding human emotion and pain. Just because someone looks different, acts different, believes in something different does not mean we must destroy or antagonize them.


Believers in God are called to love no matter what. There is nothing wrong with exercising your view on gay marriage, abortion, religious matters, education, what you believe is right and what you believe is wrong, but there IS something wrong when you cross the line by antagonizing someone that believe differently than you.


Christians seriously need to get their act together. There are so few that genuinely approach his word and profess the beautiful essence of who he is. ACCEPTANCE is the first and foremost action a christian should have for his brothers and sisters, even if you do not believe in the same view as someone else. LOVE the same sex couple that wants to be married, LOVE the person who does not believe in God, LOVE the person that is overwhelmingly passionate about God, LOVE the young woman that seeks an abortion because she has been raped, LOVE the mentally ill that has been diagnosed with a painful disorder, LOVE and ACCEPT EVERYONE because that is the only way to get things done in this world. 
This is a beautiful thing.
These people are a beautiful part of humanity.
Just because you don't agree does not mean you have the right to shut out and torment and antagonize and especially take the rights away of someone who believes otherwise.


I am utterly appalled by how many people just don't know how to simply love. To just be able to wrap their arms around somebody and tell them they are worth something in this world.
I'm so tired of seeing believers in Christ doing the opposite of what he calls you to do. You're making the image of Christ look closed minded, selective, and not accepting. It's such a distorted view of who he is.


WE ARE CALLED TO LOVE AS PEOPLE. NOT REPRIMAND.


I want to live my life as an offering. I want to surround myself with people that believe something different than I do and with people that believe the same as I do. That is the only way we can learn, accept, and realize there truly is something greater than ourselves.
I need to get out of America for a little while because this place is getting ridiculous.


One of the most amazing moments in my life is being in the Vietnamese orphanage when I was seventeen years old. I was surrounded by young children and adults that did not know who God was, they did not believe in him, and they were practicing different views and traditions that did not mirror what I was taught. 
But something very beautiful happened to me, and I realized the only way to get things done in this world is to love someone, I mean really love someone. It's amazing to see a group of people from all kinds of backgrounds and cultures come together and connect.
Simply because we are human. We are all in this together.
Christians need to accept non-christians. And non-christians need to accept christians. I'm not here for an argument, I'm just here to tell you in my overwhelming hippie view that love is a powerful thing. I have felt it in ways that I never imagined were possible.


I will always love you no matter what.


"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."


"The greatest science in the world; in heaven and on earth; is love."

Beneath the Surface

There used to be days where the sea met my toes and my hair would tangle and salt would stick to my skin. I would lie down along the midnight shores and listen to echoes of madness. The darkness would swallow me up, its soft, feathery insides. I remember tears, my throat closing in, silent, static. Cold air would seep into my bones. Wet, distant, lonely. A permanent malignity sifting through the chaos of my mind.

drawing down the moon

I don't know where to start. I'm living with what seems to be an incredibly mundane lifestyle with some bliss, a touch of sadness, but mostly confusion. Tangible days. I wish I could say something. Really anything about this. It would be healthy of me if I could. But this is as much as I will be able to get out of me. "Another layer of closure" My watery eyes know what my heart feels like. They are embracing this feeling like it might be the last touch of me they will ever know. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Maybe it doesn't mean as much to me as I thought it would. It comes in waves. One hour everything is sailing, but so swiftly my thoughts divert back towards us. I feel a crash against the shore. Give me time because it's the only thing I have to keep you from me.

sometimes i can feel it;
sometimes i can even see it;

my heart fall from my chest and shatter itself at my feet.
clamored and scattered across the dark cement.
so there i am left.
gaping hole;
frozen face;
the most important piece of my body
gone
missing.

this night is all too familiar for me.
the loneliness of my cluttered apartment, the soft eery glow emitting from the kitchen, cool silent air seeping in through the windows.
i feel it in my bones again. it won't go away. it's never gone away.

the tears, the choking and screaming, collapsing and laughing.
moods like the changes of the season.
her darkness a secret to the afternoon.


i'm living with my loneliness again, something i've known for far too long now.
a young single woman in her dreamlike world.
a garden growing inside of her chest
like love sprouting itself around her.

i woke up and this is who i became.

lovely. complex. mad.

everyone thinks they have figured out the lives of those around them, but little do they know that this young lady, this one right here has fooled you with her smile.

I really need a different perspective when it comes to: relationships, men, dating, etc. etc. etc.

It's either that or probably being single for the rest of my life.. which wouldn't be a totally terrible thing because then it just gives me more of an excuse to travel and love on orphan children in all kinds of enchanting countries around the world... I wouldn't ever feel alone and there would be an abundant amount of unconditional love that wouldn't break me for any reason. My mind wouldn't be filled up with petty thoughts, cynicism, or frustration... hmm... now that I think about it... it actually doesn't seem like such a bad idea.
Besides, all I really want out of this life is to love others, to inspire others, and to give peace to others. As far as I'm concerned I have noticed men seem to just get in the way of things and distract me from what really matters and what I really want.

Whatever ends up happening I just want to be apart of something greater than myself.

wake up, sleepyhead

It's important to feel beautiful and feel confident in everything you do, in everything you wear, in everything you give, most importantly in everything you emit.

let the sun bring you light, let its wings carry you through the murky waters

{don't be restless, find contentment, remember gratitude, know peace.}

sometimes. .

you have to feel these old familiar feelings... the sadness and discomfort, the turning stomaches with your throat closing in... sometimes you have to feel these things in order to know when that one beautiful thing comes along and finds you.. then you will recognize its unique essence in your life and how you can never let it escape.

have solace.


understand the reason for your sadness.

because beauty will find you.